Saturday, April 30

End 

Last day of the month.

No life; Sianz is the only word.

This kind of shit roster.

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andi at 12:49

Friday, April 22

Siao Liao 

Slept ot 0400... woke up at 0900... where got enough sleep? Tried very hard to sleep during the day but just can't fall asleep.

And don't know how the fucker going to tekan me tonight. Most to most I will just flare up at him. He just pissed the hell out of me.

Anyway, I have the resignation letter ready.

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andi at 15:58

Saturday, April 16

Wee Hours 

Saturday Nite.

Went to Hai Inn Temple to invite ZhongTan YuanShuai, LianHua TaiZi and ShanCai TongZi statues out. The first two to Jian Yi's place and ShanCai to T Aloy's place. Almost had a heart attack cause wasn't able to contact him since morning and he only wake up and return our calls when we reached his block. At least settle one issue.

Haiz, I am going to be working from 2100 to 0345. Although its short hours - 6.5 hours only, I don't know if I can endure till the wee hours. Moreover, I have not enough sleep. That nite I am supposed to go off shift at 0245 but waited till 3 plus for the transport while some going off at 0300 were released at 0230.

Maybe its time to look out for better opportunities.

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andi at 19:49

Thursday, April 14

Flu 

Argh.

Still sick with flu, hate the feeling of running nose, sneezing, coughing and sleepiness.

Argh.

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andi at 22:20

Wednesday, April 13

Sleepless 

Haiz, slept at 0230 hrs and woke up just before 0700 hrs. And I will be working from 1600 to 0345 hrs today.

I simply can't sleep late, no matter how late I sleep, I will wake up between seven to eight o'clock, at most nine. And I can't fall asleep again in the day. So how am I going to have enough sleep with this kind of roster? And when I have not enough sleep, I tend to be switched off and don't know what I am doing. And also very prone to flu when I am deprived of sleep.

I am getting very tired of many things recently, need to find new motivation.

Help me.

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andi at 08:38

Monday, April 11

Sianz 

Nowadays, don't seems to have the mood to blog.

Don't know what to write about, its not that there is nothing interesting going on in my life, there are. Hanging out with Ah Biah and company brings lots of fun to my oh-so-boring life. But sometimes I feel that I am out of place cause of the age gap.

Looking at the people around me, all seems to be doing fine. Most have bright futures, a best friend, knowing where to go, I even envy those who have a mundane job. I don't lack friends, tons of them, but just don't have the special one that can share everything. I guess its due to my sexual orientation, Can't get to close to anyone.

My health is not that good nowadays, due to the long and irregular at work, and the powerful air-con at the airport doesn't seems to help either. My all-long problematic gums and teeth problem is also making me feel lousy. My looks is the greatest source of depression. Not that I never try, I wash my face, go for facial and all that but still looks horrible.

Haiz, just wish to fall asleep and never wake up again sometimes.

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andi at 20:20