Out of Reach
We tend to search high and low, far and wide for certain things in life - like love.In the quest for the right one to love and to be loved, many tend not to realize that the one that you are searching for is just right before your eyes. Many a times, we start out by hestitating, thinking that this is not the best I want, someone with better quality will come along, or the best is still on his way.
By the time you discovered that the original one that was right infront of you is the most ideal, its already to late as the person might be out of your reach or happily attached.
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andi at 15:38
Sick and Sinking
Finally fell sick.Down with a real bad sore throat and a slight flu. Guess age is catching up and really have to stop all these late nites. Not only are my parents worried about what on earth am I doing outside in the middle of the nite, I am also getting quite tired of keeping out late.
Looking around at the friends I have now, I am very glad for knowing the few people that made an impact of my life, especially the few that stepped into my life to pull me out of my depression. The irony is that as I get closer to my friends, the more insecure I am and I tend to retreat.
Jave is of course a friend that has evolved to be a brother to me. Without his cheerfulness and companion, I would still be stuck in that dark dark corner afraid of facing the world. But I feel helpless when I sense that he hides his woes and troubles to make others around him happy.
Cold Flames is another person that added colour to mhy life to paint the grey sky to make things brighter. Although he is much younger than me but his maturity in his mentality and problem solving skills reminds me so much of the old me when I was in the monastry.
Yes, I have come to terms with myself that I do not have to hide the fact that I have spent almost four years as a Monk in a Monastry. And I am no longer ashame that I gave up my calling to step back into the mundane world. I know that I will ultimately return to monkhood but not in the near future.
Most people sees me as 'siao siao' and don't seems to be the kind that can get down to serious work and deep thinking much less help to solve problems. What I can say is that I burnt myself out during the time in the Monastry. A hundred problems to solve per day in the daily operations of the Monstary, A Tousand on Sundays and One Milliom during Major Festivals.
I just want to live the life of a normal person now without too much of a worry and thus appears to people around me that I am not serious about life and cold at times. I am not emotionless but guess the person that let me feel and taste of what being in love is all also took away the Fuzz in my life. It was sweet while it lasted.
Cauli is one woman in my life that I can never do without. Without her support over the past few years, I would never have traveled that far and back. She was a good working parther when I was in the Monastry and provided me with tremandous support when I left.
Seeing Ah Biah is like seeing myself in my teenage years but the differennce is that he is mad enough to live out his dreams. I am glad that he opened an avenue for me to return to my younger days and I enjoy being with him and taking care of him like a younger brother.
Recently, some of my straight friends have seen me together with my gay friends and I am worried of what will happen when the two world clash? I am also wondering was it a right thing to do to introduce my two closest friend from each world to each other?
Although the gay population is not small, but the people that are more socially active does not constitute a large number, and hence most people would know most people. I am quite sad that someone who don't really knows me at all has been spreading tales about me and many people are avoiding me like the plague. I am still wondering what is his intention.
Maybe its time for me to step back into solitude again to enjoy the serenity of loneliness? Or had the time come for me to turn straight? Yes, I do believe that one can change his sexuality with some effort. Or is it time for me to return to monkhood to regain my lost confidence?
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andi at 19:04
Feverish
Had planned to take a good rest today but circumstances had it otherwise.Drove Mum to school and fetch Ah Biah from his home. Cauli called up just as I was leaving Choa Chu Kang and thanks to Ah Biah for helping me, finally cleared out all my stuff from Hai Inn Temple and the scary thing is: It is exactly one year since I left the place. Chapter of that part of my life finally closed.
Went to collect pay cheese at the agency, but didn't have time to cash out the cheque much as I wanted to. Went to pick Jave from his office and went to The Thai Temple at Bukit Merah, The Sun Temple and another Temple in that area. Ah Biah was quite impressed with Jave's knowledge on all the legends and tales of the various Deities.
Had lunch at Great World City. Something struck me during lunch that when we get first get to know someone, we would take the effort in small gestures like buying food and drinks for each other. But as the relationship progress, much as we know the taste and fancies of your friend, we sometimes dispense with all these fussing over each other.
Went over to 'Bei Tao Tang' and 'Zhen Xin Shan Zhuang' before ending up in 'Xian Dan Gong' to conduct some rituals as a thanks giving for the successful trip to Ubin yesterday. After finishing our prayers, went over to the Temple next door to pay a quick respect before fetching Mum from school
Came back to my place to 'nuah' awhile before heading to Bishan to watch a bit of Teochew Opera at 'Tian Zhu Lin Gong'. Had some discussions about the beauty of Chnese Opera and how it invokes one's imagination as audience.
Had dinner at Woodlands before going over to Ah Biah's place for him to change and collect some stuff and sent him over Audbrey's place where he wants to spent the nite.
Really feeling the tiredness setting in and I have a feeling that my sore throat will be getting form bad to worse.
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andi at 23:58
Sunday at Ubin
Left home in the morning around Nine plus. Stopped by at Bishan Street 23 to visit 'Tian Zhu Lin Gong' to pay respect to 'Lin Fu Gu Niang'. Took Bus 13 to Yio Chu Kang to change to Bus 72 to Old Tampines Road.Met up with Ah Biah and Mouse at 'Xian Dan Gong' to prepare for the trip to Pulau Ubin and had a really fun time talking cock and seems like Time has reversed back to my teenage days where I was longing to be like them. Some wishes certainly takes a long time to be fulfilled.
Left around 2 o'clock to meet Gung Dong at Tampines Interchange and over to Changi Point at three plus where we are supposed to meet the SPI people. After much waiting here and there, and when the TV3 Crew staff finally arrived, the group took a bump boat to Pulau Ubin. Been years since I last set foot on this island and all the nostalgic feelings came rushing back.
Too many good times had been spent on this island and looking back, I really did enjoyed myself with people that I thought were close with me then. Did I not treasure the relationships or was it circumstances that made us strangers?
The first stop was 'Wei Tuo Fa Gong' and we spent some time looking at the Deities Images, feeding tortoise and chatting with the kids there. The feeling of sitting at the edge of the pond looking at setting sun with good friends will be something that would be entrenched in my memory for a long time to come.
Next stop was a Muslim Cemetary and I was feeling uneasy all the time. So I skipped the next Cemetary they group went to and waited for them on the main track. We had dinner at a drink stall operated by someone the group knows and was really famished! Call it divine blessings or coincidence, the drink stall actually sells Ah Biah, Mouse and my favorite drinks!
Its was already pitch dark when we left the place for 'Na Du Gu Niang' Shrine. More waiting for the TV3 Crew to complete their filming before Ah Biah went into trance to invite 'Tua Ya Peh'. Some questions were posted by the SPI people in regards to the death and tales about 'Na Du Gu Nian' which 'Tua Ya Peh' answered with the intention of making us analyze things rather than giving us the answer direct.
The bottom line of what he was driving at was:"What's in the past, just leave it in the past. Treasure what the present offers and do what you can to help other. The future not ours to see". Its was eleven plus when Ah Biah came out from his trance and we fanatically packed our stuff to return to mainland.
Reached Mainland after mid nite but we still went back Xian Dan Gong to return all the stuff we brought out.
Finally can have a good sleep after all the late nites.
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andi at 01:56
Saturday with Dumplings
Tried to catch up with my sleep, or rather the lack of it but was woken up by the family rushing off to work. Took two dumplings for breakfast and was on the net reading blogs, checking forums and chatting in MSN the whole morning.Had two dumplings for lunch and thought of going to sleep when Raymond called to ask if I am going to watch Shan Fa Gong's procession at Ang Mo Kio. Went over for a look see since I can't get to sleep and wondered around Ang Mo Kio for awhile before fatigue really sets in and all I long for is my bed!
Was asked by the Uncle who runs the Bus Stop Sweet Kiosk to help him tend the shop while he goes to the toilet! Helped him sold 3 copies of papers and was feeling weird all the time. Talked to Z on the phone all the way on bus and almost fell sleep after he hung up.
Wanted to snooze till six plus but was constantly woken up by my handphones! So irritating but its my fault as I didn't put them to sleep mode. Not really wanting to meet The Niche Heaven people too early for the Dumpling Gathering, so went overt to Ang Mo Kio see another temple's procession. Saw many familiar faces and was quite glad that none of them noticed me, coz they will sure pull me in to help if they spot me.
Lets see, there were ten mediums in all - Da Ye Po, Er Ye Bo, Lian Hua Tai Zi, Shan Cai Tong Zi, Qi Tian Da Shen, Zhang Gong Shen Jun, Da Shen Fo Zhu, Tian Hou Shen Mu, Guan Yin Fo Zhu and Zhong Tan Yuan Shuai.
Went for the Dumpling Gathering - but didn't eat any dumplings coz my throat is not feeling too good - played a hilarious game after all had their fill of dumplings and food but seems that most were too inhibited to fully let lose and enjoy. Gathering was okay but felt that the people are a bit plastic, well actually its the same when all gay people get together.
Maybe the olden days of just cruise, fuck and fuck off is better than with having all the modern facilities like Forums, Chatrooms and so on to create cliques, groupings and such. When Groups get together more often, codes and conducts are established for people to follow. Then comes the part of so and so not welcomed in our group, so and so belongs to such a group. And the CMI guys like me are just left out of the main stream.
Feeling tired and not very comfortable with the people there, I made my leave around mid nite to take the Night Rider home. Was a little pissed off when I wanted to get Jave alone to talk a bit but his boy friend tagged along at the insistence of their friends. That's what I meant by codes and conduct. Come on, what's wrong with me being alone with Jave? Must it be such that the boy friend have to escort him all through the nite?
Feeling hungry as I didn't really eat much at the Gathering, and finding no other food around, I took the only two dumplings left.
Feeling tired but still have to wake up early to help Ah Biah.
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andi at 01:22
Sensitive Friday
Supposed to meet up with Jave and Oddesey to watch some Chinese Opera in Redhill but was 'put aeroplane' by Jave. So ended up having dinner with Oddesey and spent some time with him at Long Chuan Dian explaining stuff to him while he took pictures.Went down to Nines Cafes to meet Cold Flames and was 'put aeroplane' again. Called up Kastaway and he is going somewhere in town and from the tone of his voice, seems he is like not very keen to meet me and I can sense from his tone that he is not very willing for me to join him to where ever he is going later.
Cold Flames appeared just as I was about to go home and we went over to Golden Cafe for his dinner and seems like he had a hectic day at work. Ah Biah called to clarify some God stuff and I felt bad on neglecting Cold Flames as what Ah Biah wants to clarify is quite serious.
Just as we were about to leave for home, Linus called asking can we meet him as he is going to meet Kastaway but don't want to go down alone. So we walked over to Maxwell and by the time we got there, Linus was already deep in conversation with Kastaway and Styler. So much for too shy to meet them alone!
Saw some forum people at the next table but they quickly moved away when they saw me, guessed I am some monster that makes people puke when they see me - someone in that group posted something like that in the forum before - felt so hurt that none of them even bother to say hello, guessed its time for me to go back to be the old lonely me. At least I am much happier just being with myself.
Followed Kastaway, Styler, Linus and Cold Flames to Mox and to our dismay, its Ladies Nite - meaning Lesbian Nite lah - so went over to Tantrix to chill instead. Linus kept complaining about feeling cold - was it the temperature or was it the effect of sitting opposite his crush? I had Snow Ball as usual but stole some beer from LInus by making him play some drinking games with us.
Kastaway and Styler left shortly after mid nite as they need to work in the morning while we stayed till one. Was supposed to go back early but when we sat down near the Night Rider bus stop to talk, the flood gates just opened - exchanged bits and pieces of our lives, experiences and outlook.
Was tempted to spent the nite in town in one of the spas but afraid that I will not be able control myself; as much as I am horny, can't do anything about it until after the Pulau Ubin visit on Sunday. Real test of my self control this two weeks thanks to Ah Biah.
Reached home near to four and have a feeling that I might be falling sick soon with all these late nights.
Maybe I was just being too sensitive.
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andi at 04:25
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andi at 17:56
Unexpectations
Was nuah-ing on my bed and talking to Ah Biah on the phone when The Agency called closed to noon time asking me to work in the afternoon and tomorrow.So the whole afternoon was spent pasting bar code stickers onto computer cables. Although its a menial job but some care has to be taken as each cable has two stickers and the number must be the same. Almost feel asleep when the task got too boring.
Met up with Jave for dinner at Red Hill Market. We thought there would be some Godly things to see or Chinese Opera to watch but seems like there wasn't any activity in the temple - Long Chuan Dian. We spent close to an hour looking at the couplets, statues and pictures etc. Wanted to ask will they be having a procession but didn't find anyone friendly enough to approach.
Jave wanted to go find the temple with 'Lin Gu Niang" and although I was reluctant to walk up and down to search for it, I still obliged as I seldom turn down any of Jave's suggestions. But the feeling of walking with him along the semi lite lanes is quite funny, so like a couple.
We finally found the temple and after looking around a bit; found Lin Gu Niang's statue as well, thanks to an uncle who overheard us talking about her and showed us where the statue is. We stayed on to watch a lady medium going into trance to invite Guang Yin to perform counseling.
Oh yeah, discovered a place called My Secret Garden - not telling what kind of place it is but hope to bring the gang there one day. But trust me, although the name sounds suggestive, it is a decent place tucked away in a forgotten corner in town.
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andi at 23:28
Again and Again
Accompanied Ah Biah to Yu Huang Dian, Dong Yu Miao and Guan Yin Temple in the morning. Think he managed to received some divine guidance on how he is going to go on in his spiritual path.Slacked at Nines Cafe in the afternoon; the place was hot due to some upgrading of the air-conditioning system. Went over to Meridian Food Court - again! - to meet Linus, Ryan, Skye, Ian, Davis, Danny and Gerald for dinner.
Went back to Nines Cafe - again! - to meet up with Jave, Darren and Virgil to celebrate Cold Flames' birthday. Today's gathering is a quiet affair and only close friends were around. Most of the younger kids went back early and since the older ones need to work tomorrow, all decided to call it a day around 11pm.
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andi at 23:58
Coffee Outing
Yesterday's events:Lazed at home the whole morning, talking on the phone with Ah Biah the whole afternoon, wanted to go swimming but my butt was somehow stuck to the computer chair. By the time I finally move away form the computer, its already too late to go swimming.
Met up with Ryan and David to have dinner at Meridian Food Court and went to Nines Cafe for coffee outing which is in fact to celebrate Alvin's birthday. The turn out was huge and saw many new faces.
Met Fishiez for the first time although I have been reading his blog for some time and exchanged emails on and off. Didn't had the chance to talk to him although I was sitting just next to him for a while. When I finally picked up my courage to start a conversation, Ah Biah called and I lost the opportunity to talk with him.
Had supper at Lao Pa Sa with Jave, Skye and Linus. Walked through Telok Ayer and Ang Siang back to Chinatown to take a cab while Jave walked back to his office to spent the night.
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andi at 01:57
Boring Day
Boring day.Tired out by yesterday's activities and was just nuah-ing at home. Thought of going swimming but by the time I finally decided to leave the computer, I lost the mood to go liao. So basically was just lazing around at home, sleeping, eating, sleeping, surfing the net and talking on the phone.
Going to meet Cookie Monster for supper at midnite!
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andi at 23:54
A Different Temple Procession
Attended a Temple procession today but the difference today was that I was in the procession instead of the usual watching. And instead of the usual mix of Heavenly and Nether Gods, all the Gods invited for this procession are from The Nether World and there wasn't any Sedan Chair as well.Went to fetch Ah Biah and Audrey from Audrey's place in Hougang and had lunch together. Adjourned to Xian Dan Gong at Old Tampines Road as Ah Biah need to pay respect to the Deities for his trance later. Stop by at Tampines to pick Xiao Di up before making our way to Fa Shen Dian at Circuit Road.
There doesn't seems to be much activities going on and we wondered if we were too early but Ah Biah was quickly dragged away for make up once the People -in-charge knows that he is the medium for San Ye Bo. More people started arriving and suddenly the place was bustling with activities.
At two o'clock sharp, the first medium went into trance and Ah Biah was asked to go into trance as well instead of the usual practice of waiting for the Da Ye Ye Bo's mediums. When San Ye Bo possessed him, the crying and wailing was much more chilling than usual and could see that some of the aunties watching were with red eyes.
It took an entire hour for all the fifteen mediums to go into trance. As all were Nether Gods, there wasn't the usual drums and cymbals but bamboo drums and cymbals were sounded instead - just like the ancient way of telling people the time.
The Gods in the procession included:
Hei Mian Tai Zi
Shi San Tai Bao
Fu De Zhen Shen
Qi Xing Da Di
Nai He Tong Zi
Ri Xun
Ye Xun
Ying Yan Shi
Cheng Huang Gong
Wen Pan Guang
Wu Pan Guang
Bao Gong Da Ren
San Ye Bo
Er Ya Bo
Da Ye Bo
There was also Nui Tou, Ma Mian and seven generals represented by people not in trance. The procession was a spectacular sight with all the brightly colored ropes and such.
We left Circuit Road at about three plus and visited many places to pay respect. Only arrived back to Circuit Road at ten plus and took another half hour to walk back to the tentage. Since there were 15 mediums in all and each took some time to de-trance, it was almost 11 when Ah Biah came out of his trance.
Fun filled day but tired out as I was serving as San Ye Bo assistant. Actually its more like directing the other few friends on what to do as they were very green in looking after mediums in trance.
It has been a long time since I done something like that and its a really happy day.
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andi at 23:59
Tea & Sex
Went to Tea Chapter for Chinese tea with Jave, Danny and Sean on Friday nite.Had a hilarious time co-relating the Chinese tea art and errmmm sexual stuff. Was a little worried that Sean will feel awkward or get turn off by all the sex talk but he also opened up and joined in merrily with his own punch lines that had me bursting out the tea in my mouth!
Met up with Virgil after the tea session with Jave for supper and listened to Virgil's bad day at his office. Well, he is still on internship what, so will tend to be bullied by some old birds. He was super pissed off and can sensed that he was disappointed that he can't make it to the tea session.
Supposed to meet Ryan and Koon for lunch but seems that Koon can't make it and I am in a dreamy mood due to the lack of sleep the past few nites. Besides, seems like I will get very lethargic after working a few days at The Expo, glad that the assignment is over but that also means that I am jobless again.
Ha ha... no sexual encounters lah coz have to help Ah Biah with holy stuff on Sunday, so it will be a while before I seek release and have something explicit for you guys to read.
Don't feel like going out today so going to just nuah at home. Might go Safra Pool to laze if I have the mood later.
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andi at 10:59
Holy Task
Its been a long time since I had such fun.Went to serve as the assistant for Ah Biah on Thursday nite as he is performing a trance. The Temple we went to - Zhen Xing San Chuang invited Guan Yin, Da Ye Bo, Er Ye Bo and San Ye Bo - Ah Biah was the medium for San Ye Bo.
The mediums possessed by the Gods, together with all the assistants and helpers went to another temple - Fa Shen Dian for a visit and it was fun! Seems like returning to childhood days when I was really into all these medium stuff.
After staying for like two hours at Fa Shen Dian, we finally returned to the first temple close to eleven. The Second Brother talked to us after Ah Biah came out of his trance and though what he said is just common sense, it somehow stoke a chord in me that I am lacking in filial piety.
Am blogging this now as I can't get to sleep though I went off to bed at 2 plus and my room is suddenly filled with incense smell.
Hmmm, visiting Deities.
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andi at 04:32
You are Lust!
Sexy!! But they say that there's such a thing as too much of a good thing. You have sex on the brain, and it doesn't stay just there for long. Passionate, Fiery - and most certainly confident. You're a fun loving, spontaneous person who is always up for a laugh. People however, have trouble keeping up with you. You're sex crazy, and perhaps need to tone it down a bit! learn a little self control!
But, Hey, Congratulations on being the Sexiest Red Hot deadly sin out of all the 7...
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andi at 07:38
Grey
Shopping is the best therapy for down moods.Actually felt better after buying a pair of kinky handcuffs from U4Ria to add to the bondage collection of toys. Wanted to buy the more elaborate one with hands and legs restraint but the price was way beyond budget.
Been wanting to get the pair of grey swimming trunks from arena at Isetan to match my grey goggles. Searched a few stores but seems that all the places I went to run out of stock for my size. Finally bought it at OG Orchard Point - the new one next to Centerpoint.
Just need to get a grey towel to complete the Grey Swimming Bag.
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andi at 21:39
Falling
Out of the blue, my thoughts went back to the happiest period of my life.Which means I will fall into depression again. I blame no one coz it was my own decision to give up all that I had then. All that I did which was fulfilling and gave great satisfaction.
I am scared. Scared that I will fall back to the period of darkness - blanking my mind and not remembering things and even people - Although I pulled through it once, I am not sure will I be able to break out of it if I fall into another depression again.
It doesn't help that my family isn't very understanding of my mental state. All they could see is that I get very hot tempered and redrawn. They just can't understand why I try to find things to do, people to meet up so I can preserve my sanity, to break out of my loneliness.
Probably they are afraid that I will walk out of the door again and not come back. They knew I was hurt, they were equally heart broken to see me climb to a peak but dived to the canvass in that three years. They wouldn't want me to suffer the same fate again.
I am glad to have some friends by my side. Thank you Cold Flames for just being there... although I wanted to cry out, I did not... didn't want you to see me crying.
Was touched when Kastaway called although he is in camp. Thanks dude. Sorry for the short conversation coz I was controlling real hard not to cry. Seems like you were always around when I am down, even if its only a phone call.
Skye di di also called after his cheer leading session, hearing his voice always lifts my mood.
Cold Flames asked a question that I am still pondering. After being through so much in life, what is it that I am seeking? Frankly, I am not sure. Someone to love and to love me? Perhaps. To seek back my lost lifestyle? Not at the moment, maybe ten years down the road.
After having everything and nothing in your life; what is there to seek for?
But I am crying now.
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andi at 21:40
Relax
I love to relax on Mondays when the majority out there are having Blues.Went Safra for a swim in the morning. Although the Sun was shining bright and there was a delicious guy sun tanning there to ogle at, I didn't stay long coz I have to head down to the Agency to submit last week's Time Sheet. Money is more important man.
Reported to Gaelic's Inn for last day of work. Was basically just wasting time as the manager didn't really had anything much for me to do, so I volunteered to leave at 6 o'clock instead of 8 as I suddenly had the urge to go home to have dinner with Mum. Home is where I long to be.
Visited Nick at Clementi and he gave me a massage as he says I looked tired which I accepted as I was feeling quite burnt out and also needs some pampering; though I think his other reason was that he is dying to touch my body - as usual. Was very tempted to unload when he kept teasing me and stroking my Little One but declined his kind offer as got Holy Task on Thursday.
Will be on Exhibition Assignment in Expo till Friday from tomorrow.
PS - Had wanted to blog in Point Form but ended up writing an essay again.
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andi at 23:59
Free
Was at Ah Dan's temple today.Ah Biah needs to go through some ceremony so as his Godly Assitant, I was there the whole day helping him out. Although it was something simple but more time was spent discussing what to do than doing the actual rites! The rest of the time was just spent chit chating about all the mundane stuff life is offering us.
Went to Nines to chill out with Cold Flames and Jave in the evening and don't really know why the topic jumped to my sex drive again, argh! Anyway ermmm was free balling today and suddenly Jave said something like can see your Little One lar when I was lazing on the couch. So paiseh - but then didn't really mind coz I am an exhibitionist! Though got nothing much to show off - no bods, no muscles, no abs. Miss the good old days when I was in The Army - at least look fitter and lean then.
Can sense my down mood coming.
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andi at 23:53
Chinese Tea Outing
This is the third time trying to get people from The SGBoy Forum to go on a Chinese Tea Outing and the turn out yesterday was great!I forgot to bring the tea leaves, my tea pots and to refill my wallet with money when I went to work in the morning so had to rush back from Orchard and down to Chinatown after knocking off. Luckily Jave and Cold Flames were at Maxwell to meet the people going.
I got a shock when I reached Maxwell coz there were like twelve or so people around when I expected the turn out to be five to eight only. Jave stayed with those who haven't had dinner while Cold Flames and me went up to Tea Chapter.
Was quite touched by the enthusiasm shown by most of the people at the outing and most - if not all - were really keen in learning about and appreciating Chinese Tea. Was glad that some who were keen to try brewing had their turn.
Although the group were rather rowdy but its expected at such a big gathering of almost 20 - at the last count - guys. Eric brought An Qi along and she did created many moments of laughter by her 'Aunt Agony' voice, which annoyed some though.
Although its not a roaring success but was quite an experience indeed.
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andi at 09:31
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andi at 17:26
Dinner and Supper
Met up with Cookie Monster.Wasn't planning on any things to do tonight so obliged when Cookie Monster callled to ask if can meet up for dinner. Since the car is at home, so I drove over to pick him up from his place and went over to Circuit Road for his dinner and my supper.
Seems be to putting on more weight since I got to know The Supper Monstor.
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andi at 11:58
Full or Part Time?
Wanted to ask Mike out for dinner but he as usual couldn't make up his mind to meet up or not.So ended up with driving over to pick Sandy and her flatmate up to have satay at Li Han's stall. Sandy updated me with all the happenings of my course mates and how the Consultant Course is getting along; she also encouraged me to take up the Consultant Course as I had passed my Foundation Diploma.
Will be taking up the Consultant Course, just haven't decide on doing it full time or part time. Doing part time would means that have to wait till September next year to take the exams while doing it full time would qualify me for the exams in March.
On the other hjand, I would have practically no income if I choose the full time course as lessons are on every weekday in the afternoon - which also means I can't take up much assignments from The Agency.
Still have about two months to think it out.
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andi at 23:55
Disorder
I have this disorder that some finds it strange while doctors says it nothing serious.Have to rush to the lavatory whenever the urge comes to conduct big business and normally will have to go a few times before everything that my body wants to clear flushes itself out.
This is one of those days that this happens while being the first day on a new assignment The Agency arranged! So I was like visiting the Gents every half an hour or so with the supervisor thinking that I am having a diarrhoea - its not!
Met up with Jave to have dinner at Paragon Food Court for Korean food and he faces this problem too! So I joked that we were so alike - not in looks lah - in certain characteristics that we even have the same loo habits.
I always joke that its my period whenever this stomach upset happens, just that its not monthly but as when my body wants it to!
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andi at 23:50
Boxers & Briefs
Although I am more used to wearing briefs most of the time but there are times when I will be in the mood to wear boxers instead. I wear boxers at home and sometimes even to nearby places like the hawker center or opening the mail box.I reckon it may be linked to my childhood cause I remember that I don't really like to wear briefs until secondary school days; until errrmm my little one grew up and errmmm was zipped by my school shorts zipper a couple of times that I had to pester Mum to buy me more undergarments.
So all my inner wear were briefs through out my teenage years bought by Mum. Only started to shop for my own undies during my time in The Army. Was basically still buying briefs and was quite fanatic about buying different types of briefs.
There was a period that I had more briefs than my jeans, pants, bermudas add together; I would also wear briefs matching the colour of the pants I am wearing! Although I don't consciously do that now but old habits die hard and you could properly guess the colour by what I am wearing outside.
Can't really recall when I started trying wearing boxers but I remember that my first pair of boxers were bought at John Little. Somehow boxers makes me feel sexy - internally lah - and errrmm my sex drive will sky rocket if I am in boxers for a couple of days. * blush * so it started another frenzy to collect some boxers.
Towards the end of my Army career, I started to try going au-natural. The first time I did that was in my Army No 4 and the feeling is more relaxing than being in boxers but the only draw back is that my don't really like it when wearing something with a zipper as my errrrmmm Little One will tend to be zipped. * ouch *
The funny thing is that my sex drive will be subduced when I errmm freeball; guess it a mental state coz its like being returned to childhood when I don't wear anything underneath and sex was not on the mind at all.
The airy feeling when wearing boxers or going au-natural gives a sense of freedom and there is also the feeling of not being constricted by conformities but briefs on the other hand gives a sense of security.
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andi at 20:37
Divine Visiting
A day of visiting the Divine and blessed by Heavenly Showers.It was pouring when I finally picked Phoenyx up after collecting Jave and Oddesy on way. Was tempted to suggest canceling the outing but Jave was insistent that the rain will stop.
Since we were at the western end of Singapore, so we decide to reverse the order of the original plan and went to The Jade Emperor's Temple at Jurong West first. It's one of those combined temples so other than The Jade Emperor's Temple - which is the Main One, there was also Ci Shan (Charity) Temple and Fu An (Prosperity and Peace) Temple. Spent some time explaining to Phoenyx and Oddesy on some aspect and all were quite interested in the sixty Tai Shui. Had some fun searching for our own Tai Shui and looking at their images.
The Sun came out shining bright once we left The Temple and I was amazed that roads didn't really seems to have traces of the down pour that happened. Maybe Jave was right that the Heaven are showering us with some blessings to wade away all the sad things in our lives.
All of us didn't had any breakfast so we detoured to Boon Lay market for Brunch. Went to the old Jade Emperor's Temple after filling our stomach, at Havelock Road where we chanced upon a medium from some temple there performing some rites. This temple is old as compared to the previous one we visited and spent some time looking at all the images of the Deities with Jave telling us stories behind some of them.
The next stop was Cheng Huang Temple at Tanjong Pagar - didn't spend much time there but were impressed by the priest performing blessings - ranted on and on without having to stop for breathe when he was praying. The architecture was very unique - pre WWII - but didn't really know how to explain so every one was just browsing around.
Dong Yu Temple was the next temple on our list but we didn't really spent much time there and most of the Deities - except Dong Yu Da Di - were seen in the other temples so we just look see look see awhile. Was feeling a bit uneasy due to some past happenings which I am not ready to talk about so left the place a little while later.
With Phoenyx around, so we thought of ending the outing with a visit to a female Goddess Temple - Tian Fu Gong at Telok Ayer. Had some crappy comments about the park and Shogun next to the temple and all had a good laugh at our own jokes. The place look so touristy and I miss the days when it was old, rustic and full of joss stick smell.
There were altars dedicated to The Nether Gods - Da Er Ye Bo at most of the temples we visited - although most people are more comfortable with The Elder one who is dressed in white robes, Phoenyx seems to be more attracted to The Second Brother in black robes who is fiercer and less even tempered.
Ended up at Nines Cafe for a short chill out before sending Phoenyx to Orchard and Oddsey back. Jave came over to my house and we tried some chinese tea and seems he was rather impressed with my black tea as I manage to serve it without the 'dead cockroach' smell.
Snooze for awhile after Jave left and woke up when hunger sets in - as usual - and went for dinner at the Lorong 8 Market. Had popiah and water melon juice which was only half filling but didn't really have the appetite.
Went to Bishan to watch 'Ge Tai' awhile before heading home to conclude this divine Sunday.
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andi at 10:28
Explosive Saturday
This is a real explosive day.The Gas Stove at home exploded in the morning when I was steaming some bun. The stove splattered into hundreds of pieces and I took almost an hour clearing the mess in the kitchen. Luckily, I was in the bathroom when it happened and no one else was at home so there wasn't any injury or damage to the house.
We seldom use the stove as we seldom cook so the gas trapped within is like pent up sexual energy. Just like my sexual urge will shoot sky high if I wear boxers for a few days without reliving myself. So it's no surprise that I am feeling all high and horny the whole day since I have been wearing boxers for the past week since Monday and the explosion somehow heightens the sexual tension.
Cold Flames called after he and Ryan were released from The Singapore Idol Audition saying:"We made it! To the second day of the audition." We arranged to meet at Clarke Quay as I promised to accompany Ryan to seek out the Ocarina shop that Cauli mentioned.
The shop was closed when I pass by it so quickly gave Cold Flames a call to meet at Nines Cafe instead. The three of us fell asleep at Nines as the place is so cosy and the ambience is so soothing. Must start to charge Michael as it seems that I mention Nines Cafe in most of my Blog entries!
Went over to Clarke Quay when we chilled out enough to visit the Ocarina Shop - which only opens in the evening and had a little chat with the boss. Since no one have any idea where to go, Cold Flames and Ryan decided to head home while I ended up in Shogun.
Wasn't really expecting any action but ended up with a boyish looking beng - with some cool tattoo on his chest and back - from Malaysia. We had a short break during our near two hour session when he said he wanted to smoke and return a couple of calls
I wondered around the maze and was caught in a mass orgy happening there. I almost forgot that I was supposed to meet back with beng as there were caressing branches of fingers and fiery leaves of tongues all over my trunk. Only managed to untangle myself from the forest of bodies when the volcanic center of attraction - a lean mean cool guy - exploded his lava.
Met back with beng and we tried all sorts of imaginative positions with lots of hokkien vulgarities coming out from the two of us; which must have set the people outside thinking what the hell is going on - are we having sex or quarrelling? But I simply love lasping into all the KNN etc when I make out and the fun is doubled when my partner does so too.
Didn't have such a fufilling session in ages as he made me exploded three times - in the wet cave, the dark creek and finally being attacked by the five pirates. Had wanted to ask him to supper but he wanted to stay behind for another round or two!
Didn't have supper in that area as there didn't seems to be any food stall open so travelled back to Toa Payoh - there was a disruption to the train service so I took a cab - to buy supper home to share with Mum and Sis.
Damn explosive day.
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andi at 23:46
Friday Fever
Friday was an eventful day.Went to Bukit Merah View to visit " Xuan Jiang Dian" - yeap its a temple - to see see look look in the afternoon. I went over to Nines Cafe to slack and while the time away as their procession is only starting at six o'clock.
Went back to watch the beginning of their procession and its quite spectacular as there are at least seven Lion Dance Troupes participating. I went to the Bukit Merah View Market to buy food and pop in to Jave's office to surprise him when the procession embarked on their journey to the seaside at Tuas to sent off the Dragon Boat.
Came back home to drive Dad to work before meeting up with Jave and Cold Flames at Nines Cafe. Saw Simple Life with his friend having dinner and Sirius with his friend Kenneth - who looks hot and cute - there while waiting for them. Although I met Sirius a few times, this is the first time that we had the opportunity to have a more decent conservation.
Intended to have Soya Bean Curd at Geylang but the place is simply too jam packed with traffic and humans to find a parking lot. We gave up upon receiving Fuzionz's call and went up to Yishun to meet him. However, he already left home when we reached his place.
Since we didn't know where he was and his handphone is off so we drove around hopping to bump into him. Knowing its a silly idea, we just stopped at a coffee shop near North Point to have a drink. Saw Eric when we were driving out from the car park and stopped to have two words with him.
Sent Jave back first as his place is nearer to Yishun, and we stopped for another round of drinks and talking session near his place. Had a heart to heart talk with Cold Flames about how the relationships are working out when we reached his place and had to finally chase him home as he is going for The Singapore Idol Audition later.
The future's not ours to see so just enjoy what the Fates has for you now.
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andi at 03:45
Aphrodite/Eros
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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andi at 11:52
Performance
Went to support Skye's performance in the evening,His Drama Group from The Republic Polytechnic staged a half hour 4 Act Sketch at The Heeran Shops for The Singapore Street Festival. One of the Acts were written by Skye himself which he also performed in.
Was at Nines Cafe earlier in the afternoon reading my Sensual Tarot Cards Guide when Baby Face join me. We dropped in at Jox where I bought a bracelet - again! - before stopping for a quick dinner at The Mid Point Orchard Food Court.
We were just in time to meet Ryan to catch the performance and I must say that their standard is quite professional as compared to other Stage Groups of their age.
Waited a while for Skye and Elton to clear up their stuff while we roamed around a while and I was very tempted to buy more accessories. We went back to Nines Cafe to meet up with Jave and Cold Flames and hanged there awhile before walking over to Maxwell to have their dinner.
Went back to Nines Cafe - for the third time - with Jave while the rest went home to chill a while and talk some relationship problems over - not ours lah! Just general observations of what is happening between who and who - okay, bitching if you must insist!
Somehow I don't seems to be my self today, don't know why.
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andi at 23:51
Tissue
I usually buy my tissues from old folks peddeling them at Bus Intechanges, Chinatown or Whereever they appears.The main reason is of course to support them in their ways to earn their living, although many will feel that its over priced. Its not a sense of pity when I buy the over priced tissue but the metality that
I always have this thinking that will I end up like them in my twilight years?
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andi at 15:11
Vesak
This is the 1st Veak in almost 20 years that I did not spent in a temple.For as long my memory entrench, all my Vesak were spent either at The Singapore Buddhist Youth Mission or Pao Kuang Temple. Especially at Pao Kuang temple when I was an active volunteer there.
I even had to pay someone to do my BOS duty one year when there were no one that I could change my duty with on Vesak Day; as I had to perform duties in Pao Kuang Temple.
So it was a real change to be at home, not even thinking of going out today. It is kind of funny as I can't usually stay at home doing nothing for even half a day.
Not sure how will my Vesak be next year.
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andi at 20:58
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
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andi at 17:46
The Best Self Control Of A Man Is The Ability To Control His Orgasmmaystar designs